There’s one thing that most people don’t know about me, I’m a thinker. I’m constantly in my mind about something. It could be inventive ideas, improvement ideas for my room, a streamline process for work, plot lines for books, or spiritual things. I could go on and on and on lol. And sometimes I over analyze things to the point where I feel overwhelmed and then disappointed when I can’t figure out how’s it’s going to be done.
And the sad thing about it is I do all of that thinking but I don’t consult God. When I get ideas I don’t talk to him like a business partner or investor. When I’m stressing about money issues I don’t come to him like financial planner. When I’m dealing with emotional stressors I don’t confide in him like a counselor.
What I do is- think, get overwhelmed, feel disappointed and then come to God with my tears and sadness wondering why nothing is working out. Asking why he would give me such thoughts but no way to bring them to fruition. Feeling frustrated because things are happening as fast as I would like them. I can image He’s looking at me shaking His head with amusement saying, “ Mychelé I never said no, you never gave me a chance to answer, you never included me in any of your plans so what could I say?”
Indeed what could He say? I’ve subconsciously boxed God! He’s great enough to be my ruler, great enough to be my Savior but Too great to be everything else. He’s not that concerned about my career goals, my financial situation, my quest for purpose. Oh God forgive me for my foolish thinking because I know better. And yet in my absent-mindedness I hear Matthew 6:33 “But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.”
Definition of SEEK -transitive verb
1: to resort to : go to
2a : to go in search of : look for b: to try to discover
3: to ask for : request <seeks advice>
4: to try to acquire or gain : aim at <seek fame>
Exercise: replace seek with the definitions above.
Game changer right? for me that scripture read, Mychelé if you want/need something ask me first then I’ll think about it and if its not evil or harmful to others then you can have it. But that’s not what Jesus means, in fact asking is third on the list. He wants you to come to him first like you would your parents for advice, confide in Him like you would a best friend with all of your secrets, go over business plans with Him like you would a potential investor. TRUST HIM (prv3:5-6)!! He’s God for goodness sake and nothing is too hard for Him (Lk 1:37) !! Those ideas you have, if they are God glorifying he wants to see them accomplished. Those questions you have, he wants you to ask them. Those problems you’re having a hard time of getting rid of, he wants you to give them to him. Let him be your EVERYTHING. Easier said then done I know, this is what putting our faith into action looks like. I don’t want to be held back because I couldn’t trust God to be everything he said he is and I don’t want you to be held back either.
“We have very little faith in the Lord, very little trust. If we trusted the Lord as much as we trust a friend when we ask him to do something for us, neither we as individuals nor our whole country would suffer so much.”
― Elder Thaddeus of Vitovnica